It's been a while,
Have kept in touch with a few of you over that post-Gathering "storm" and i come with a white flag.
Firstly, i wish to kick myself in the butt for keeping away from the Forum.
Over the year, have made some tremendous friends, including YOU and have shared my love for Kate's constellation. This is the prime reason why i joined in 2005.
Secondly, i shall always treasure this memorable Gathering this summer. It was a dream come true to re-live a Kate Fan Gathering and i did not mince my words when i evoked my sincere gratitude to "Kate's magic".
Now, in the light of what happened, let me apologise [although this seems so little] for all the harm you have endured.
Never i thought negative vibes could turn this way.
David is not dark or nasty by nature, otherwise we would not be together. His craving to befriend people can distort his personal feelings.... Meeting Paul in the flesh this summer confirmed a few things. Have discussed this at length with Pat. We shared a friend's house an entire weekend and i saw the "two sides of the coin". Paul shares a same passion for music, like Dave, who believes he's been defending a "good friend" in the autumn.... This as far as i can comprehend. Repeatedly, I have asked, begged David to let go of things, telling him others' problems were NOT his. Have also begged David to focus his energy onto positive things. [ie. music].
At this stage, have been far too embarassed to step back into the Forum in an open manner. [Have explained this to the gang]. I feel torn apart by the hurt and harm inflicted to the Forum and my silence to friends i've come to know and appreciate.
Above all, i feel absolutely dreadful for KATE HERSELF.
God help us if this mayhem has reached her in any way... The KBF has already survived blows... I can only hope that this storm will pass and that the bonds that unite us as a community is stronger than those recent events.
This kind of things goes against the grain of my own convictions as far has friendship and human relationships go.
I miss the Forum very much, however, I too have have been hurt by those negative energies. It is not what it should be about. Like Lissa and the vast majority of the KBF members, I joined in to celebrate Kate's music, world, my joy of life, love, friends and share it with similar folk.
I feel for you all, believe me and am working at home to make David see light again. David, like all of us, is no saint. However, he has to cultivate friendship, true friendship and he must learn to let go of things.
I will fully understand if you wish to disregard my message. However, please know it has taken me a while to fully comprehend what's been happening from various echoes.
I hope peace and light are gradually filling your hearts again .
I miss you all very dearly and i hope to be accepted again some day .
All the love, Nat xxx